Today i feel to keep a diary in english.
caz i feel bad on him.
just before ,i asked him "do you love me?"
and he was thinking for a while.
actually i know it was not thinking time.
im sure and he also sure that he doesn't love me anymore.
i noticed his feeling from Des.
but i don't wanna know his feeling to me.
it was easy to know that he doesn't love me.
from e-mails,calls, and so on.
even on 31st, he said to me to have pose our relationship.
but i couldn't understand it.
いや、わかりたくなかった。
and i was shocked everything around me.
because he didn't celebrate my birthday well and Christmas.
such an important event did he break.
and he hold me without love.
finally he is trying to leave me.
what a fuck.
what is pose?
what are we waiting for?